05.12.2020

I have never lived through a time in history like this, where a sitting President can lie about another president while at the same time destroying the country he presides over.

Its truly a terrible thing to see. Willfull self endangerment to dance with a little Covid_19 out of spite and hate.

Look closely, you can see gray matter ooze from their ears as they poke and burn out their hearts to kill all passion.

They no longer appear human.

A month from now all the infected will be in the ground like the people who gave away blankets with small pox.

The last humans can not bury themselves, they crawl into their holes. Too bitter, the maggots will not eat them.

05.06.2020

What do you do when you never want to fit in a society?

In this day of globalization and technology, all people should be more accepting of different people and ideas. As individuals this should be more so.

But I don’t see that with most people and frankly I’m fed up, but what else is a whore supposed to do?

It’s a question about sex, (and spirituality and how I walk in life).

I’m a self styled whore and that’s by choice. I don’t expect most to agree with me because I hold a contrary position.

This is how I function as a human:

You get an invitation to go to a sex party, but say no because someone else has your interest, that’s cool I dig that.

And yet, there is nothing wrong with going to that sex party and letting it all hang out, while thinking about that same special person.

There is nothing wrong with going to a sex party, as long as you are open and honest about your choice.

Perhaps going to the sex party reminds you of your sweet heart, making you long for that person, perhaps not.

I do know that honesty is the best policy, for yourself and those you would call friends. Honesty is a good policy, and not that bad if you love lying or spinning tales.

But, I have had to lie when I was younger and sometimes even today. Sad but true.

Yeah I know. I used to lie about the sex party question until I looked at my unhappiness. I was feeling false and untrue, which is a mostly worthless feeling.

I don’t have much value for Western ideas or values, and the rest of the history and morals of humanity have proven to be equally bad.

My honesty may hurt.

Which brings me back to honesty.

04.10.2020

What’s wrong with orgies?

I mean, I never see or hear people talk about orgies, or see products in the box stores supporting its culture.

For that matter, why don’t people talk about sex?

I’m convinced that the society I live in is far too puritanical for my taste.

When it comes to sex, some parts of the United States are ok in attitude, and others live in the age of Abraham, (yeah Alabama, I’m talking to you….)

I think that if this current state of affairs continues, there won’t be any people to date and have sex with.

And not having orgies will be the least of my problems.

03.24.2020

Question: Is there such a thing as a happy addict?

I have always claimed to be one concerning sex. I don’t think I can say or believe that now, since I’m in the realm of sex, spirit and my setting off on path of sexuality better off not taken.

And no, I can’t say that I have ‘won’ against anything because I’m still living the moment I find myself in. I’m enjoying myself, but know that addiction is in and of itself a ‘wrong path’ if we are talking about objectivity and rationality, the ability to know truth backed up by the facts.

I don’t have that, or rather my mind and psyche seems to be ignoring all that stuff.

So what I have left is synchronicity or ‘flow’ and my blind need for sex and companionship, (sex as I observe it is so taboo that it looses its sacredness in religious dogma).

And in doing so create my dogna…

So, Am I any better than religions?

Nope, dogma isn’t any different no matter who preaches it.

And I need to get better at living a moment at a time.

03.12.2020

Anyone have the corona virus, or #Covid_19?

If so, what have your doctors told you?

I do have a compromised immune system, so living in San Diego does bring some concern to my mind. But I also feel that I won’t get it because I’m still strong.

What I don’t get is the thought of watching other people suffer and die. Knowing there are people at home in self quarantine dying, sometimes alone.

It hurts, it’s real emotional pain.

I have been thinking about divorcing humanity, because I have not found people like myself with an interest in dream working or spiritual sexuality. I think you can be lonelier in a crowded room than alone in a cave.

Right now, I’d rather live in a cave.

02.25.2020

I hate white supremacy, (but does hate solve anything?) It’s not only a human rights violation, but a cancer that affects everyone. It’s created feelings of genocide, that a whole race of people should die for the injustices created by a few.

It must die, or the entire human races dies. I consider this the fault of Christianity, the originator of this kind of hatred.

Maybe humanity does not deserve existence, but I will be free of hate.

So much so, that I have disowned humanity, to be freed of it’s ignorance.

Is that simple?