OUT!

OUT!

I just don’t know….
Less and less real,
less and less desirable.
Is it just me, or do you want out of this reality, this world?
Homeless, you’d might think I’d had reason to.
But I’ve wanted to die a long time now:
Brokenhearted,
Betrayed,
Infected with an incurable ill, refusing to eat eggplant, (disgusting, blah!!),
Been wantin’ to die since eight years old….
Yeah, I’m hurt….
Watchin’ the Klan proudly marching down a street on TV,
black transgendered women being killed, just for being.
I want to leave to a better world than here.
Where the Light is bright but warm, where ALL is one and One is All….

But that ain’t here.
Huddled against a desert night,
Tryin’ to stay above the shifting sands….

 

 

 

 

 

09.14.2019

What can I say?

My current living conditions, worrisome but improvable.

But that of my spirit is of great inner debate. I mean, as free as I could be with my spirit and worship, I find myself confined to a world where I simply do not fit in. In truth, I rebelled against organized religion a while ago so that I can find my own truth.

My truth is mostly sexual, with an emphasis on things like dreams and the unconscious mind. The thing is, its kinda lonely, like walking down the street in Jamestown, expecting the mob to tie you against a steak in the ground to be burned alive as a witch. And the feeling is country wide, where the freedom to be who we are as individuals is gradually disappearing.

Observations

I often wonder if I could be mistaken on this, but it appears that a lot of homeless have mental-behavioral problems. I also need wonder if this is what mankind will all look like in the near future. I hope not, but it looks like a trend.

08.16.2019

It’s hard to write when the world is what is today.

I’m still OK, living in transitional housing.  Getting and maintaining a job has not been going very well.  Needless to say, it’s kinda distracting and frustrating.

And then there is the spectacle of watching my country slowly die under President Trump and the Republicans.

When so many things in the United States needs fixing and improving, the Republicans seem bent on making this nation a white supremacist/Christian Sharian state.

What troubles me more, is that there is not much of an uproar over whats happening.

Stars, Planets?

Are we nothing more

than celestial bodies in skin?

We attract and repel each other’s

gravitational fields.

But we don’t know,

that all things come from stardust and either, forces binds us
that

we cannot see, deja Vu behind a back alley,

we be mingling,

Banging super nova’s.

We don’t know navigation, (stars, stars everywhere….but we don’t care) or negotiating Flow.

We but wee ants with only two dimensional minds.

We but the be beginning….and

End.

5.21.2019

3:41 PM

I’ve been disturbed of late.

That #Alabama wants to make women second rate citizens by making them have babies against their free will, or religion or spirituality, making the patient and their doctors felons, or getting up to 99 years in prison, and other ramifications I can’t fit in this sentence.

It disturbs me,

….that a creeping of kind of Christian #sharia: that EVERYONE must live by based on their religion, (and to do that required “foreign” intervention to do so, really sucks.), their willing to commit treason, (by aiding and/or abbeting, to create a new Christian kingdom, horrorfies me….)

But what I’m I to do?

Meanwhile, the merry go round refuses to stop, despite hitting the big red button a hundred times.

What are my options I wonder….

Good or Evil?

A man walked up

To me, and asked me which one prevails: good or evil?

I told him neither,

that human perceptions creates both….

Sometime in my past,

Someone asked if I were a Christian.

I told him that I am a free spirit.

People have asked me if I were gay or straight,

I tell them neither, that sex is a fluid, messy thing,

And an open question….

I often wonder, is humanity good or evil?

Only Goddess knows….